On and on and on...

So I came on yesterday.  I actually feel like I handled it pretty well this month - for a change!  I am not sure if that is because:

• I am doing really well on the whole 'trying to stay positive' thing (unlikely at this point!)
• we are moving forwards on the road to IVF
• whether part of me just didn't expect to be pregnant this month

On the positive side:

• I can stop feeling guilty about the one small bottle of beer I had this month!  
• I can gorge on smoked salmon, soft cheese and red wine for at least a week without worrying I am harming my unborn child
• I wont be seven months pregnant at my wedding (not sure if this is positive or not?)
• I know I haven't reached the menopause!